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[Jun. 17th, 2005|02:45 pm] |
two more weeks to go---YES
then I'm headed home to mom, andy, nestle, and summer II....I can't wait
I have been doing well in my classes here at UTMB and it feels good...I have begun a new chapter: one where I will actually study and spend time with my mom...:) |
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[Jun. 9th, 2005|02:55 pm] |
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i began clinical rotation---i believe my mentor is desirable |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|01:14 pm] |
the monster called...my heart skipped a beat and my mind went blank and then I didn't recognize his voice...
then it came, the surge of emotion, the gushing of withheld tears...
but then awkwardness............
and then the click, i told him good-bye and i'd call him later.
I clicked. |
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| it's been a while |
[Jun. 2nd, 2005|01:57 pm] |
damn I haven't seen this thing in forever...
Me and MArk:::whatever there was..over
I find myself in Galveston once again for EMSAP and so far everyone sucks..the social interaction between my cohort is so fucking obsolete I couldn't even muster up a conversation with another peer in fear that shit would start like it did last year.
While Tanya, Erika Elizondo and I drove to Target we saw a man--a hobo--on the side of the street with a puppy in his hand,,,,,Tanya bought it....:) we almost crashed twice and we ran into three younger med-high girls that got into cohort 7...I forsee a similar situationi to ours....beware girls. The closeness of med-high did not teach you to deal with pricks and dicks of the real world...FUCKERS
I am so back.... |
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| I'll stop the world and melt with you??? is that how it goes? |
[Jan. 20th, 2005|05:03 pm] |
sO I ran into another EMSAPer person that I hadn't seen in a while..odd
I asked her if she was still in and she said she had changed her mind....that's 2 already....
So after statistics I wanted to go chill at Jen's apartment but all I heard was bitching and fighting....she's having problems with her roommate---i hope she's still alive...
So this friday there will be a bbq at her apartment with a few people I had not sene in awhile.....scary, how I have drifted from my kind...
School is now my main focus and it seems to be going great so far. that 4.0 seems not to hard a task. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2005|06:26 pm] |
when will I be captured???? When am I to fall idiotically in the misery they call love. When will I be a slave to my GOD? The carnal passion, the need...it seems no effect has caressed me yet...but I remain wondering when this little girl will grow and when she will fall in love. But when? Maybe in a day, a year...fear faith, wretched faith a thing of mystery and beauty. When??
Follow the pretenses, your games. Use the children's tools to carve out your future, your wants and fullfill them with what you get for the sweat that has fallen from brow to breast.
Boredom and wonder....maybe not a good combination. |
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| new year, new life |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|06:23 pm] |
this vacation I realized what an idiot Noln is, and what I did wrong and how I should bring people over. MY FOOT IS ASLEEP.
I think maybe MArk is a better idea than anything else. But I don't need a serious relationship until I get out of med school. But that does not exclude the idea of friends with privileges. HINTS:::: No one? Okay I'll see about it. |
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| make over time |
[Dec. 8th, 2004|11:14 pm] |
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i dyed my hair black, cut it short and got bangs...i like it |
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| cancer |
[Oct. 21st, 2004|07:07 pm] |
It seems that no one will give my family a break.
My nephew was diagnosed with cancer on friday- it's hard because I don't know what to say or what to do to make things easier on my family. So I run away- I create an altered world where I am happy and there are no problems; a place where everyone smiles and things we're like they used to be. We've finally gone bankrupt amongst these problems and i fear all the doors are closing in on me.
Nolan and i kissed on sunday and it seems the relationship we had before will mimic itself in our new relationship. i find myself at his place every night, because whenever I'm home I feel sick, antsy, or mortified that I am stuck.
like they say, "keep on truckin"
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| Nomas |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|04:21 pm] |
I am here waiting at the school library for Nolan to call and tell me when he's out of swim practice.......I have no patience.
So for his birthday this is what I did:
- I bought a cookie cake from Nestle which I drew and decorated myself:::: I dropped it stepping right out of the mall, so I scooped it up and ran back to work to see if i could save it.
- I bought him a HIM ring from Hot Topic and engraved a sweet little something on the inside of the band.
- I bought him a DOORS wallet
- We're going out tonight but I still don't know where.
I love working at Nestle it's sooo freaking stoopiD. |
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| Genie |
[Oct. 6th, 2004|08:41 pm] |
Yeah that thing where I can feel and tell what people have experienced and will experience has returned. I don't like it.
I knew something was wrong with nolan and i could feel like he needed me and ofcourse I need him. He called me this morning and I asked him what was wrong. He said that so much had happened to him and that he needed to talk to me. He said he was to call me after eleven since he's working...............I feel really because I expected him to call and I knew he needed me. As for Michael, he's freaked out and calls me Ms. Cleo- I gave him a little session about the love experiences in his life. Everytime I see him he asks me what's new for him. |
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| I awoke to bliss |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|01:22 pm] |
Days have gotten better and I feel peaceful....
No longer do I think of what is missing and I am embracing the last few shreds of hope that I have.
on saturday I awoke regretting that I did not end up going out with ANDY, my get wasted phase, and got ready for work. Once I finished putting on my uniform I sat down like i always do for about ten minutes wondering what woud await for me that day. Although I found myslef in intense thought and lifesaving sighs I was pushed out of that trance by a ponhe call. People dont' call much nowadays. It was Jorge. It seems that for the past few weeks he and I had been getting closer. He called to tell me he had gotten me a ticket for the Velvet Revolver concert for the 25th of October. HELL YEAH!!!!!
I think that Nolan and i started all over again...hopefully this time around it wont turn into a sick codependent relationship like last time. No matter what I will always love him.
Happy days, good days....you all should visit me at the mall....I'll make you kick-ass mochas and turtles....yummmm'!!!! |
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| Just here.... |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|12:55 pm] |
I am in Carlos and Jaime's dorm waiting for everyone to get their asses in here. So basically I am alone, listening to Incubus, and watcing Aqua Teen Hunger Force while typing away with no point other than to entertain myself. Pos Que Chingado???
I wanted to go visit Nolan today,since I have nothing to do until 3.
But Tanya wanted me to wait for her on campus, since she's doing an interview right now. I think i like the idea of living in dorms. Hmmm.... |
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| El plan... |
[Sep. 10th, 2004|10:05 pm] |
first of all I went shopping today--I ended up meeting with Andy at the mall since he went to go visit and I ended up not working.
The plan: Since I work at Nestle Toll House I have the opportinity to buy one of their cookie cakes at a discount. I want to buy Nolan a cake and draw Invader Zim---maybe Gir---on it.
I'll take it to his school since I know his friends would really enjoy it and hang out there for a while. He wants to go out, but I don't know what to plan...
Does anyone have any suggestions on what to give someone for their 18th birthday??????????????????? |
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| Laughing my asssss into grapes.... |
[Sep. 8th, 2004|03:11 pm] |
SO today was a pretty busy day---had classes, then when i was done with the classes I went with Tanya to Marc's place which was cool, we were watching Fight Club. I got bored after thirty minutes and decided to go get pizza. I called Nolan to see if he was hungry, he said yeah...he was still in class and didn't have lunch till around so I was like cool I'll buy a pizza for us and chill at Marc's place till one. Okay so I did that, then I took off to his school which was pretty much in the middle of no where. Man was that a trip. I was sitting there with him just laughing, becuase his friends are so freaking funny---I took on this guy in a cracker eating comp,,,I so kicked ass. I had so much fun....I got grapes all over me. Nolan wasn't able to make it in my mouth...i was able to put one in---I kid, I suck at throwing I ended up smakcing him all over the face.....
I'm happy. |
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| update |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|08:27 pm] |
things I have done;
-got a second job
-got a new lap top
-found new hobbies
Okay so I don't think you all remember when I was involved with Adam for like a day...right?
Well I haven't thought about him since the last day I told him to fuck off...one reason was because I'm still head over heals over Nolan and the second because this lady Isabel had told me he was with soem chick.
Well I had a =noticed a change in attitude from one of my employees but I never thought much of it- I never took it to the heart when she was in a bad mood.
Well, this Saturday one of the supervisors told me that Isabel had been talking shit about me and that that's the reason why she wouldn't listen to me. I was like what?? but then they told me that she hated me because somehow I was still linked to Adam-which I am not- and because she and Adam started seeing each other aroiund the time that I dropped him. I bust out laughing. Can you believe that? I don't give a fuck about them and After hearing bull shit all day long I finally told them straight out- I don't give a fuck about you guys. It get's worst---I'll tell you the rest of the story later----yeah she's 27 and she's starting shit with me--hello? |
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| ummmm....lately |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|12:22 pm] |
I seem to be crying myself to sleep every night for the mere simplicity that I am a very lonely person. My best has moved to Brown town only to bless those damn spokes with his presence...
Yup I am Andyless....
I think I'll go to the gas station....Andy I need a taco. |
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| Resolution |
[Aug. 14th, 2004|12:10 am] |
Today I spoke to Nolan about my true feelings for Adam, since the majority of the people began questioning what was going on between us and he told me to break whatever it was that had with Adam off.
I don't really like him, but he's there, and I feel bad for leading him on. But then a firned of mine asked me if Adam was with someone---I was like what----she told me that she saw him all huged up on some chick and I said THANK YOU to her. She was sort of like what????
She did me a huge favor. I had a reason to not feel bad....SO i decided to just come out straight to him....
I call...I wanted to do it in person, but I wasn't going to see him for a while.....
he answers and is all like what's up....
I ask him, bluntly..."don't lie to me, are you seeing someone?" after a few stammering he says yes....
all in all, I told him thank you...bye.
that stress is off my shoulders... |
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| I waxed Andy..... |
[Aug. 12th, 2004|05:53 pm] |
Okay so I went to go do that presentation for that EDCI class, which was redundant becuase the majority of us got 100s on it....then I went to go eat with Tanya, Carlos, and Aileen....then I went home to go get what I needed to drop off for my scholarship crap at the post-office...went to pick up ANdy so that he could go wax.
When we get to the waxing place my firned's not there, it's ther witchy lady that overcharghes on everything. She tried to wax ANdy's arms for 15$...i got pissed so we walked out and went to the Sweet shoppe na couple of venues from the hair place...andy bought me a soda and bought himself banana nut bread...
we get into my car and decide to go to sallys where the chick at the counter was soooo hitting on andy...she was blonde....okay mexican blonde...so she recommends that stuff to andy----we get to andy's house- which is now my home- and we start waxing him....let's just say I'm sticky anf for the first time I don't know what to do about it. |
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| I took 2 days off |
[Aug. 11th, 2004|09:28 pm] |
Okay so this was my day off and I liked it....
I took my moms to run errands and then when I went to the post office I come back into my carro and she asked me who is ADAM????
I was freakin out, I thought she had pulled that vodoo shit on me again, but to my surprise Adam left his bag and lifeguard equip in my backseat...how or when I don't know??
So I was like shit....I decided to take my nieces to see the Princes Diaries 2 and drag ANDY along with me.
But I remembered Adam's crap which caused this huge drama with me and my mother...so I made a pit stop at Super Splash to drop that crap off,
WHen I get there I see Adam and then Nolan. I turn to Andy and was like "you're meeting Adam and do you want to see Nolan??"
So he meets Adam...finds him strange...and we then turn our attention to Nolan.
I run to him, hug him, and he and Andy say their strange hello's.
Oh yeah, my cat had kittens last night and she hads a little mutant...she had a cat with three eyes, two noses and one mouth. |
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